Disappointment….

Well, after all the excitment and preparations, we are on hold.  The flights are delayed and we will not be seeing Eric this weekend as planned.  Now we are rescheduled for another day next week.  I am really upset but do understand that we cannot control the flights.  The kids are upset too but they are not as understanding.  It has made for a very tense day. 

Now comes the hard task of finding a hotel room for another day since the one on the base is full for the day we are supposed to be there.  I am not sure if we will be able to find one or not.  This also pushes back the final homecoming and is creating a lot of worry for me.  I want him home!

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Why am I…

so nervous?  It’s a good kind of nervous, but nervous still.  It’s that first date butterflies type of nervous.  I know that very shortly I will be seeing Eric again for the first time in a long time.  I am so excited to see him.  It’s like Christmas morning all over again!   I am constantly amazed at how after 18 years of knowing Eric, I still get butterflies at the thought of seeing him.  Holding his hand and kissing him still makes me giddy and the thought of anything else with him, well, I will keep this post PG.

I have our suitcase packed for the weekend trip to New Jersey and the dogsitting arrangements are made.  All I need to do is wash diapers tomorrow evening and do some clean up Saturday morning and then we are out of here!    I just hope the weather holds because it will not be fun sitting outside in the rain with the kids during the reception.  I am so happy that we are one of the first units to go through this instead of the last.  The anticipation is killing me!

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That was a fun conversation….

Let me sum my online chat with my wonderful husband in one word, Wow!  That was by far one of the most interesting conversations we have had in a long time.  Funny how typing to him brings out the devil in me. 

I am feeling very overwhelmed and stressed today and I need to talk myself out of it.  I am noticing how my moods are tied directly to the chaos surrounding me.  It used to not bother me, but more and more, I find myself unable to deal with chaos and clutter.  I am going to start decluttering in earnest this week because I just can’t handle the piles of stuff all over.  A packrat I will never be.  Does anyone else feel a burning need to simplifiy their lives once they reach a certain age or is it just me?  I have felt this way for a few years, but this past year it is really getting the better of me.  I have wondered if it is because I have a larger than average family so we have more than usual stuff or if it is because I have nothing else to focus on right now or maybe I am taking after my mother with the OCD.  who knows.  I just know that I need to get rid of stuff and simplify big time. 

I am counting down the days til I see Eric again.  That is the one bright spot in my week, know ing we are so close to the end.  I can’t wait!

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A great birthday!

Yesterday was my 32nd birthday.  I can tell you that I have the best friends in the world.  Friday night they surprised me with cake and gifts which I was totally not expecting.  We had a great time on the patio eating and drinking.  We even outlasted the kids, hee hee.  Saturday we went shopping for school supplies and clothes and Sunday 2 of my friends took me out for lunch, a movie and some yummy ice cream afterwards.  Then my inlaws took me out for dinner with my boys.  My kids made me cards and breakfast and we went to the park with another friend and his son yesterday morning for some play time.  It was a great day marred only by the fact that my wonderful husband wasn’t there.  I did get to talk to him on the phone and for once in our lives neither one of us could come up with anything to talk about.  Go figure. 

Today is a sunny day already.  We are predicted to have temps in the 90’s which makes for some hot rooms upstairs in the house.  Unfortunately those are also the rooms that need cleaned to most.  Grrr.  I hope to get them cleaned quickly so I don’t have to be up there too long.  We have been fortunate this summer that we haven’t had too many really hot days yet and summer is almost over.  The kids start school 2 weeks from today.  I can not wait!  I am craving a routine right now and I know that school will provide it.  Soccer also starts in a few weeks so we will be busy again. 

I hope this week passes quickly because it means that my husband is that much closer to coming home.  I also hope it doesn’t pass too quickly though because my cleaning needs to get done by then too!

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A few more weeks…

the suspense is killing me!!!!  I have never been good with waiting patiently and these last few weeks are proving to be no exception.  I wish I could speed up time.  I have been spending quite a bit of time trying to get my house in order.  That helps pass the time.  I am trying to read, but falling short on that.  I am getting excited for the Rascal Flatts concert I am going to on the 29th too.  A good night out with my favorite girlfriends!  I know we are going to have a great time that night. 

The kids are into watching old musicals right now.  Tonight we are watching The Music Man.  Aaron is a tired heathen tonight though and making it hard for the other kids to actually watch the movie.  I think a little man will need an early bedtime tonight. The kids are enjoying their popcorn so much. 

I have to work tomorrow and Friday but I am looking forward to it.  Sunday I am going to have lunch with my girlfriends and see GI Joe at the theater.  Apparently they feel I need a birthday celebration out instead of sitting at home with my kids.  I think I will buy myself a small birthday cake though to celebrate with the kids later.  Just because I can.  My real celebration will come when Eric is home for good.  Just thinking about it gives me the giddies.  I am so happy to see the end of this deployment it isn’t funny.  I know everyone is happy to see it end.  The best part right now, for me at least, is the fact that we will have a day or two of just the seven of us.  I am kind of anxious to see how Rion gets along with Eric after being with me for so long.  He is so fearful and gets stressed out by men in general.  I hope he can adjust to Eric’s presence in the house.  It may be an interesting few weeks.

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Where did it go?

It’s August already?  Are you sure?  Wow, where did the summer go?  Only a few more weeks until Eric is home! 

The kids are starting to get excited, as am I and Eric is too.  We can see the finish line and it is awesome.  This weekend was a lot of fun.  I took the kids to my dad’s new boat today.  My brother, sister in law and nephew and niece all went too.  On the good side it was a beautiful day, the boat is gorgeous, and we were all together.  On the bad side, Aaron cried all day, the kids were fighting most of the day, and we had some mechanical problems.  For those of you that know us, the mechanical problems are just part of a day of boating with my dad.  It wouldn’t be a boat trip with no issues to fix.  I would love to go back to the boat, minus the kids. 

School starts in 3 weeks and we are going to spend some time this week getting things ready.  The kids are not looking forward to it, but on the other side they are excited because they know this means we are closer to Eric coming home.  I can’t wait.  I miss him so much and I am starting to feel better about his homecoming.  I have been so worried and apprehensive because I don’t know what to expect.  We have really been reconnecting on the phone over the past 12 months and honestly it has been time well spent.  We have been really working on our marriage and hopefully it will be stronger than ever after this.  Although I worry sometimes about the changes that have taken place, I am excited to see him and for us to be together again under the same roof.

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